Comments on: Brenda in Birmingham is riding a bummer of a semester http://www.historiann.com/2011/11/22/brenda-in-birmingham-is-riding-a-bummer-of-a-semester/ History and sexual politics, 1492 to the present Tue, 23 Sep 2014 08:24:56 +0000 hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.9.2 By: Perpetua http://www.historiann.com/2011/11/22/brenda-in-birmingham-is-riding-a-bummer-of-a-semester/comment-page-1/#comment-909544 Tue, 22 Nov 2011 23:50:38 +0000 http://www.historiann.com/?p=17274#comment-909544 I really sympathize with your situation, Brenda. I had a semester that was really terrible, where I felt like a fraud and a failure, like I wasn’t doing more than the bare minimum to be competent at my job. In my case, I was so ill I almost had to go on disability (and probably should have). I would go teach, go home to crawl into bed to work/”work”. I collapsed in a lecture hall full of over hundred students and on another day started vomiting on campus near some dorms (some nice young woman, thankfully NOT one of my students, came over to see if I was okay). It was my first time teaching that huge lecture course, and I had to monitor the two TAs, and then I was teaching a smaller class (which I ended early every week because I was too ill to sit there for three hours) that wasn’t going well, big surprise. I was lucky that my teaching load is so light; I’m not sure any of my colleagues noticed (I wouldn’t have told them anyway). I’ll admit I still haven’t read my student evals from that semester!

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By: koshembos http://www.historiann.com/2011/11/22/brenda-in-birmingham-is-riding-a-bummer-of-a-semester/comment-page-1/#comment-909542 Tue, 22 Nov 2011 23:47:31 +0000 http://www.historiann.com/?p=17274#comment-909542 At some stage we are forced to live with what was granted to us a priori and the best efforts we put in. As the French say: even the most beautiful bride does not provide more than she has. So Brenda, you did a great job. Next semester with your health back, you’ll do much better.

As previous comments said, we all have ups and downs, tough classes, bad semesters, emergencies and a lot more. We all learned to live with this reality.

There is another factor called your work history. If you were good for ten year and bad in the eleventh, it is a aberration (unless something else happened). When I was about 30 I was listening to people’s discussions without having a clue about the discussion. It was very frustrating until I realized that I was doing quite well for almost 30, how likely is it that I am a little slow on the up take? I realized that the people were clueless about their discussion. So, Brenda you are going to be fine.

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By: Indyanna http://www.historiann.com/2011/11/22/brenda-in-birmingham-is-riding-a-bummer-of-a-semester/comment-page-1/#comment-909523 Tue, 22 Nov 2011 23:00:12 +0000 http://www.historiann.com/?p=17274#comment-909523 I *always* pray for snow days, but that’s a snow thing, not a work thing, and certainly not a pedagogy thing.

This sounds like my first *eight* semesters at a certain place, and I never took a sick day–it was just a sick course, and sick courses never take off either, alas. The students were there at curricular bayonet point, I knew almost as little about the subject as they did, but the institutional issue wasn’t what anybody knew about anything. It was about billable hours at the credit hour mill. It “this-too” passed.

I did have one semester hollowed out for about four weeks by parental illness. I’d drive to parental manor, get things stabilized, drive back (hundreds of miles), see the phone light winking and not even unpack. Drive back. Repeat. My colleagues stepped in bigtime, and in one class, I recall that my evals actually spiked. Some students said wow, it must be tought for him, and graded accordingly. Others said, hoo-ray, I liked the substitute better anyway, and graded accordingly. Then it was summer. I’m glad my car didn’t get a vote.

The point, I guess, is that, yeah, the perceptions are always out of control when you’re under this kind of stress, and people are usually seeing things in better perspective than you are. None of my experiences of the sort, I have to say, were while adjuncting, although they were while untenured. It *would* be disturbing if Brenda’s colleagues, especially established members of the department, were not offering *some* kind of verbal support and reinforcement, under these circumstances. Even if they can’t jump out of their trenches into her trenches.

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By: truffula http://www.historiann.com/2011/11/22/brenda-in-birmingham-is-riding-a-bummer-of-a-semester/comment-page-1/#comment-909510 Tue, 22 Nov 2011 22:12:41 +0000 http://www.historiann.com/?p=17274#comment-909510 Some terms are better than others and sometimes all you can do is motor on through, remembering that as Historiann writes, the term will end and you will move on. A student in my undergraduate course this term came by earlier to talk about balancing school, work, and life. I empathized with him entirely, as I am doing a poor job of this myself right now. It is helpful for us all to recognize that we all have downs as well as ups.

My worst teaching experience was the first time offering a class that had just been added to our degree requirements. There was an alternative for students who came in under the prior program but they had to actively seek it. I ended up with a group of students who failed to take advantage of the alternative and were angry as hell to be in my class. Every morning I walked into the classroom happy and ready to go. Every morning the angry club walked in a sucked all the oxygen out of the room. I had a job to do though and I found that after a while, the non-angry students were defending the course content to the angry ones. It was still a rough ride but I learned from that experience. Talking with more senior colleagues was helpful. They have seen pretty much everything before and even if they don’t have useful advice for your particular situation, sharing woes can be a bonding experience. At least, that is how it worked out for me.

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By: Matt_L http://www.historiann.com/2011/11/22/brenda-in-birmingham-is-riding-a-bummer-of-a-semester/comment-page-1/#comment-909507 Tue, 22 Nov 2011 22:04:21 +0000 http://www.historiann.com/?p=17274#comment-909507 Dear Brenda,

It sounds like you have had a brutal semester by any standard. Like Quixote, I would second Historiann’s comment about student feedback. I think your students can empathize with your situation and will cut you a lot of slack, especially since you’ve already shown some understanding about their deadlines for the class.

Your letter to Historiann suggests to me that you are a capable colleague and professor. Remember the truly incompetent never question their own competence. Like Kenneth Lay, the truly incompetent sincerely believe they are the smartest people in the room. Based on the self-reflexive qualities of your letter, I’d say you are a competent and thoughtful. I bet your colleagues and students appreciate those qualities.

Finally, please treat yourself and your students with compassion. Sometimes things just don’t go as planned and there is nothing we can do about it. Hang in there, and the semester is going to be done in two weeks.

Best wishes,

Matt_L

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By: quixote http://www.historiann.com/2011/11/22/brenda-in-birmingham-is-riding-a-bummer-of-a-semester/comment-page-1/#comment-909481 Tue, 22 Nov 2011 20:56:08 +0000 http://www.historiann.com/?p=17274#comment-909481 Strongly second the point about subsequent feedback showing my perceptions weren’t even close to the student perceptions. So don’t beat yourself up, Brenda. If I had to guess, I’d bet most of your students are saying, “Wow, she’s had some amazing bad luck, and she’s *still* doing her damndest for us. What a cool lady!”

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